I Want To Be Free

It comes and goes
the numbing pain of heartache the stabs begin when I remember
The beginning
And the first promises
everything was new and exciting everything seemed so real and promising
The looks you gave me
the pictures we took
the short time we had
and I've walked away from all of it.

You said I'm all you want but you'd never tell me why
Just that you need me, you love me
but you should have said why
I can't stay when I'm just a desire
if that's the case
I'll go either way because I lost the fire

It comes and goes
the mind torturous memories
the stab wounds have surfaced in the ending in
the last few words
everything hurts to look at everything haunts me, good and bad
The lack of direction
the self hatred
The destructive history
and I have walked away from all of it

You said you didn't need me to be angry
You always said I'm sorry
You never asked me about my story
You think this break is easier on me

I talked you through the fights
I always did the right thing
I had a desire to know your life
I pursued you more than you think

You said you still love me
But you didn't tell me why
Simple words aren't enough for me
You should've told me why.
I can't stay when I don't know
Who I'm loving.
I can't stay when I don't know
Why you want me.