Sorry About My Rant, I'm Just Hurt

Usually, Christmas break would've been something to look forward to and enjoy. Mine was not so good. I have come to the conclusion that I no longer can stand being in certain peoples company anymore, and I also learned that promises are shallow. Someone who continually breaks trust, is dishonest, rude, and treats you like the lowest piece of shit there is... IS NOT, for goodness sake, is NOT YOUR FRIEND. 

I FINALLY decided that I will not stand for this treatment anymore. It is the stupidest thing I have ever done, to put up with selfish and self-absorbed "friends" for so long, forgiving and just letting it go. I am DONE. SO SO SO DONE. It is NOT worth it to me anymore. 

Dear you, YOU ARE NOT WORTH IT ANYMORE. 

I cannot take this stress, this hurt, this frustration, this anger, and this pain anymore. I can't. No no no. I WILL NOT. I HAVE been taking this. I have been taking this bullshit for YEARS, and you know what? I FINALLY think I am learning the lesson. After being burned, and torn apart time and time again by these people, I FINALLY am just saying TO HELL WITH THIS and forgetting about it. I know I have said to hold on to people, but I have also told you what a true friend is, I believe. And I really am a gem at finding the most shallow and low friends of all, and putting them first, and investing in them over people that would be beneficial to ME. 

"A real friend sticks closer than a brother." 

I cannot believe what someone is willing to put someone else through! HELL, I cannot believe what I have put up with, and then seeing how it effects me SO negatively. It makes me such a depressed, negative, distraught person. It has eaten me ALIVE for years! Wasted and wasted time on people who tear me down to make themselves feel better. They mistreat me for who knows what kind of satisfaction. I do NOT care to understand. I am done, and walking away, and just sick and tired of it all. I won't listen to any of those "Don't let a friendship die" talks. I don't give a damn. They would let me die. They have been making me miserable for years, and they never hesitated. "Oh, I'm sorry" BULLSHIT. When did "sorry" mean, I feel bad because you confronted me and figured out what I was doing, but I will just do it again because I don't care that I hurt you...? WHEN!? Please, someone, anyone, EXPLAIN this to me? 

I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND.