Right now, I am sitting in Econ class. U have gotten so far behind on homework, that if my parents knew, they would cry. They have such high expectations of me, it seems. I am not the smartest child in the family, but I am not the dumbass. Haha my sisters are very hard workers, and I am mediocre. When it comes to school. I'm not a straight A student. I do what I can, and I don't brag when I do well. It doesn't matter to me for people to praise my grades. I like helping people.
I have such a hard time being okay with weaknesses and needing help. I always wonder if that's an okay thing. Growing up, I always felt like in competition. I was never good enough, but I needed to be better than the weakest link. I've always been right there in the middle. I tend to settle with making it through. I do what needs to be done to get by with the littlest amount of frustration. Or at least try to.
It's hard for me to focus on individual goals an expectations. I am so ADD that I cannot just think about one thing at a time. I have a hard time not being distracted. Sometimes, I will being talking about one thing, see something, and then completely change the subject. Or my mind goes off and just wanders. But sometimes it is entertaining to others, and my ADD can cause inspiration for good ideas and topics.
So, I guess, in essence, chaos can be beneficial.
I have such a hard time being okay with weaknesses and needing help. I always wonder if that's an okay thing. Growing up, I always felt like in competition. I was never good enough, but I needed to be better than the weakest link. I've always been right there in the middle. I tend to settle with making it through. I do what needs to be done to get by with the littlest amount of frustration. Or at least try to.
It's hard for me to focus on individual goals an expectations. I am so ADD that I cannot just think about one thing at a time. I have a hard time not being distracted. Sometimes, I will being talking about one thing, see something, and then completely change the subject. Or my mind goes off and just wanders. But sometimes it is entertaining to others, and my ADD can cause inspiration for good ideas and topics.
So, I guess, in essence, chaos can be beneficial.
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