What More Could I Ask?

I don't really understand how someone could be so ridiculously clueless. I usually am pretty understanding, but sometimes, I don't get how people just don't pay attention to what others say. I hate saying something, and then another person asking me a question to the answer I already provided. The thought "Why bother?" crosses my mind many times.

I'm sure there is one person in everyone's life that no matter what they do or say, everything about them drives us nuts! And the sad thing is, sometimes that can be people we spend time with the most. I guess, that's more unfortunate than anything else. It usually is a co-worker, a family member, or that friend who just HAS to spend time with you. Whoever it is, it's usually best to reflect towards yourself, and try to see things their way, and learn to understand them. It's hard, really. But usually, it is not impossible.

People are worth our while.

That's My Story and I'm Sticking To It

I'm sure we have all had the feeling of boredom at least once. I generally don't ever feel bored because I have many ways to entertain myself..when I want to be home...alone. But on days like today, I would like to go out and DO something before schoolwork ties me up again. Come tomorrow, I have plently of homework due the three days I have classes, and I won't have any free time during the day more than likely.

Sunday is the perfect day to have a relaxing afternoon either outside or inside, depending on the weather or preference at the time. Today, I spent a few hours outside, and now have been laying in my room for 2 hours. I find it very frustrating to just sit and text people when I could be spending time with some of them...and yet, they don't have the "time." But why not? Why do we have to just lay around...and not get up and do something?

Sure. The weekend is meant to chill. But also, I thought "chill" meant to hangout as well? It's not that I don't find that appealing, but I do not spend much time with people on a personal level. School just started, so, everyone in classes are mere aquaintences, save for the two girls I already know in my English class. That's the bummer about going to a community college with no living on campus: You don't see your classmates everyday and don't have a roommate. It kinda ruins the whole college experience. Of course, the freshman are attending only in hopes of transfering somewhere else, and the rest are old people...going back for a new degree...usually in nursing. Or they're like me. Losers with no money, no job, and living with your parents. The only way to get an education is to get a grant from the government... Boy. I feel pathetic at times. But hey, technically all that money is really mine from taxes they take, right? WRONG. Just kidding, but seriously.

I didn't mean to go on a rant about college, but it does somewhat frustrate me that I would have been hanging out with new friends on campus at IPFW...until I lost my job and couldn't afford it.

And on a beautiful day like this, who wants to go to a movie? Not me! I want to sit outside...mostly with my boo, and relax, and drink Pepsi. ( I love Pepsi. LOVE. Shut up, haters. ) I was only refering to my sister asking if I would want to see a movie. hahahaha NO. MOVIES ARE FOR RICH PEOPLE. Am I? NO! wait, that was not meant to be a diss to people who are well off. I just don't have the money...andddd..you do. SO. With all that being said, I hope this week is better for all of us. The first week of school is always a terrible experience, I believe. (for those of us who had our first week this past week) GOOD LUCK to all who start this week, and I guess to everyone. College is hardd.

Oh, and...yeah. High Schoolers. It doesn't get easier.
Until you graduate from college.

Today has been...

It's been a few days since I last wrote. Alright, ten to 11 to be exact. A lot has been going on in my life the past 11 days. For starters, I began college. Yup. I am a freshman, and sadly, only attending Ivy Tech Community College. My prior plans of leaving the GREAT state of Indiana failed me.. and yet, the plans to move away from HERE, where I live.. fell through as well. I am content with my situation for now, but I will soon need to spread my little wings of freedom and curiosity. Otherwise, unlike as the saying goes, the lack of curiosity fulfilled, I will "be killed" by dullness.

I believe no one wants to live a dull life. But of course, we all have our own definition of what is dull and what is exciting. We devote our time and efforts to different activities, people, and interests. That's what makes us all unique. But I am not blogging on our differences, and what not. It would take too long, and there would be so many errors. I have not traveled past the border of Canada and New York. I have been Nationally grounded all my life so far. I have not met many different people or cultures, though, my plan is to travel the world someday.

That's another thing everyone shares, I believe. Dreams. Aspirations. Goals. They are never the same, but we all have them. I believe I can state that fairly. Even if it's very small. 

I'm not going to lie. Today has been one of those days where it seems that no matter what happens, it makes me angry, and there seems to be no end to the vicious cycles in life. I don't get upset of frustrated for no reason. When things don't make sense, or people just break me down, I can't stand up on my own. And I don't think anyone really can. It's hard to find that person who you can fully lean on for support, and be sure that they won't pull away from you...mainly because they lean on you as well. We all need that person, I believe.

I'm still searching.

The Beginning

This is my first blog on here and I guess I should start off with explaining what the reason and purpose of this will be.
For starters, the name "Red Panda" isn't really named after the actualy animal. Back when I attended a small Jr/Sr High School for my Junior year, I was nicknamed "panda" for some odd reason. I recently dyed my hair what is called "true red" so therefore I have been dubbed by my family as "red" so I just put the two together and came up with the name Red Panda. Makes sense, right?

The purpose of this blog will generally be based on what's on my mind. I usually like to post some of my own poetry, photography, or just thoughts. And I would like to start practicing on my "counseling" or "advising". So, if you have any questions about a general topic, or personal, I am definitely interested.

I'm excited to start! And I definitely hope I don't bore.

- Hannah <3!