Monday, February 8, 2016

Self-inflicted pain is easier to deal with than unexpected pain.

I know that with the statement above comes several different exceptions. I believe when you expect a pain to occur because you're allowing it, you know how to face it. If I cause my own pain, I'm prepared for it. Now, if your mind goes to self-mutilation that goes to extreme measures, please stop. I do not mean that it won't hurt as bad if I cut my hand off as if someone else did it. Honestly, it would hurt worse for me because I'd not do it fast enough. The shock of someone else doing it would take over for a while before realizing the pain of it being gone and bleeding a lot. I realize how strange these thoughts are right now.
This comes from a heart that has caused it's own pain and a body that has left scars purposefully on it. I guess this reflection comes from someone who also just pierced her own nose. I'm no expert at anything. Sometimes feeling something I can control is everything. I know it shouldn't be.