If two is better than one, why am I alone? I have sought companionship and fought to hold onto it, but it's separated. Crushed. My efforts are in vain. How can I trust someone to stay when even my friends don't? Do I need to be pounded into the ground and have these thoughts etched into my mind continually? Does this frustration ever end? To feel like I can rely on someone seems unreachable.
I just keep reflecting on different people that imposed their feelings on me and how much it's hurt or just affected me in general. And it's not fair when it's brought up nonchalantly. I'm not even given a real chance to respond. And then I get left in the dark. I'm so tired of searching for real love. I am tired of cowards not taking a risk for me.
I just want to be one with someone and be whole. I feel it's never gonna find me.
