I will not say "dear" because you are no longer dear to me.
You make me feel empty
And have always left me so alone.
That must be because you are as cold as stone.
When you needed someone to confide in, I was there.
When you needed someone to complain to, I was there.
When you needed answers, I tried to give them.
When your mind was racing, I was there to calm you.
When you were rejected, I was there to catch you.
Even when your actions were a direct hit against me,
Even when your words were so emptily thrown at me,
Even when you used me for your own selfish reasons,
I was there. I was always there.
You could tell the world that you knew I was there.
You could tell the world that you knew I cared.
You could tell everyone that I loved you more.
You couldn't count the nights that I would stay up for you.
You couldn't count the times you owed me an apology.
You couldn't count the times I wished you meant nothing to me.
Even though you hurt me so,
Even though you only let me down,
Even though you would rip me apart,
Even though you and I are not alike,
I chose to be your friend,
Even though you never treated me right.
Every word I would say, you would question it.
Every feeling I would express, you would humor it.
If you really cared, you would have made it known.
If you were really my friend, you would have shown.
You barely would say words to me when we're face to face.
You have no strength or courage; hurt and weakness take their place.
How many times I wished I would own your heart!
I thought that if I waited, and waited, you would realize somehow
But I was the only one to realize that I was wasting MY heart.
We are so different, you and I.
You are the one who hurt yourself by letting me go.
You said we would be friends, but I should have known.
Your actions have never expressed the heartfelt thoughts you've shared.
You are the one who left the chance to vanish.
You said you needed me, but you treated me like I was a disease.
One day, when you are all alone, you will regret that day
When I gave you my heart and you shattered it like glass.
You will see that you still have your heart, and it's aching,
Longing to be with the one person who understood it.
You will be lost in your emptiness because you never let yourself heal.
There is nothing more you can do to me.
You have no hold over my heart anymore.
I am no longer yours to hold or release.
This is not one out of many letters,
This is the last one I'll write for you.
I waited for you and you will always remember that.
We are so young, yet we've known loss to an unhealthy measure.
One day, I pray you recover,
But you won't
Because the only thing you let go of is Love.
